Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Failure and Renewal--NOT GIVING UP!

So, I've really been slacking off in the healthy eating department lately and now I'm paying the price.  It's really hard for me to even sit here and type this, literally, because my hands are so swollen and bloated and I'm beyond exhausted.  I've always had a slight thyroid issue but I was able to manage it when I was juicing and walking.  Now, I feel like it has REBELLED.  QUIT.

No one made me eat the things I did.  I chose to go back down that path. All the exercise in the world won't do a darn thing if you eat poorly and neglect your health.  For me, I have to do the total package or none of it works.  I know my body.  I have to fuel it properly in order to see weight loss, improved energy, and overall physical and mental well-being.  I remember how good... no...GREAT I felt when I was juicing and that's how I want to feel every day.  I certainly don't want to look and feel like THIS any longer.

I'd managed to drop from 248 down to 206 and then BAM!  I started eating poorly and not exercising.  I'm back up to 210, bloated and miserable.  I've lost 42 pounds and ideally want to lose another 42.pounds and feel/look good along the way.  I'd be happy losing 30 more pounds as long as I felt better.

I've taken my vitamins and supplements for the night.  It's almost 8pm and I am going to curl up in bed with the kitteh, our heated blanket, and a good book.  My hands are killing me and I just can't type any more.  I'd love to go on but it will have to wait for another day.

Wish me luck.